Everyone deserves the chance to FLY

WOW.

AHH so I gave by brother The Departed for his bday and we just watched it and OHMYGOD!!!! That's all.

yep so today...got up at 9 for bible class at 10, then had calc (got that awful quiz back but hey i passed by one point so go me), stopped to get some lunch, went to meet with the English chair so that I could declare my major and he told me that I cannot do writing and mass communications with the education concentration so now I am just doing regular english which is okay i guess but i have to switch some of my plans around and change my advisor. Then I went to work study, where i got to walk around campus for an hour delivering envelopes, then off to Ethics, then to Chorale and acapella. That brings me to 6:15. From there I realize I have 15 minutes to print off articles from the library about the topic for my interest circle this week which was starting at 6:30. I get there just in time, sit and listen for an hour because no one talks and it is completely boring, run upstairs to eat a frozen dinner in 10 minutes because I had to be at girls' acapella practice for 8. That ended around 10, at which point I got back here and started my english paper. I just finished about half an hour ago.
This is basically how every day this whole week has been, substituting different acitivities of course. I am still sore from the two hours of dancing yesterday...pretty bad. Lets just say by the time Friday comes around I am definately going to be ready for a party. Because on Sunday it starts all over...

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Basically, you're brave, daring, chivalrous, and pretty much.. an all around good person. You're really good at winning, and normally always come out as the hero. Everybody likes you.. except, maybe, the Slytherins. You're too perfect. No, really.. You're too perfect. It's annoying to watch you win, repeatedly. Oh well. Be proud anyway.

Gryffindors to Remember:

Harry Potter

Ron Weasley

The whole Weasley family

Hermione Granger

Albus Dumbledore

My life is so random sometimes. So Wedsnday I was supposed to start my new job. It was working for the NHPIRG (its an environmental/public interest group) and I was excited because the people seemed wicked nice and they liked me and everything, but I had no idea what I would be doing. Well I get there to start my "observation day" at 12:30 (mind you I had just worked 4 hours at hannaford) and I talk to them a little bit, we have a discussion about Global Warming, and I learn that we are going to Hanover for the day to go door to door about preaching about Global Warming and begging for money. We had a script and everything for what to say to people when they open the door and we had to practice it about 20 times before we even left. But I was just observing no big deal right, I thought it would be kinda fun. Well as I discovered, its fun when people actually give you money, when it's not pouring rain outside, when you don't have to walk around the block 10 times uphill, and when people don't slam the door on your face before you even get to finish the speech. Oh and also, after a couple hours of "observing" this one girl do all the talking, they made us split up. Yeah thats right I had this one street that I was solely responsible for, knocking on random doors, by myself, talking about an issue that frankly I'm not all that concerned with and I'm not even sure where these people's money is going. Yeah it pretty much sucked. And see the thing is if we don't raise at least $90 every day, then we don't get paid what we're supposed to. The other people I was with were saying, "oh you're going to be so good at this" and saying how much fun it is and everything, and when I left I told them I'd see them the next day but as soon as I got in the car I doubted I would ever go back. Did I mention I didn't get back until 10:30? Yep, 10 friggin hours and I'm not going to see a dime from it. They don't pay people the first day, probably because so many people drop out. So that was my one random day as an environment fanatic. go me.
Now I think i'm stuck at hannaford all summer. They're going to try to give me more hours, and if they give me a lot then I dont really need another job, plus it's easier to get time off with them. Hopefully it works out though.
8 days!!

I feel sick, though I know I'm not. I feel restless, though I am exhausted....

Well "PUP CUP" weekend is over. Thank goodness. Basically it's the biggest drinking weekend on campus, and everyone is obnoxious. So my friends and I decided to escape the madness and have a party of sorts on our own. On Friday we went out to Bertucci's, and Heidi and I told them it was our birthday and they sang to us! It pretty much made my day. When we got back we started watching Final Fantasy or something like that, but I've never played the game so I was lost but it was okay. My brother Jeff called in the middle of it so I missed part of it anyway. Actually I was kind of depressed the rest of the time because of it. He had called to tell me that he found out where he is going after he graduates. First he's going to Kentucky, then Washington, then Texas, for training. That's going to take about a year, and he leaves right after Eric's wedding so I'm not going to get to see him until who knows when. Then after Texas he's basically guarentted to go to Iraq. And I know that there's still the possiblity that he won't have to go and that it's a year away, but the idea still scares me to no end. I don't even know if he's going to be around for the holidays. He's always been there for me, and now it's like he belongs to the government. The stupid government. For some wierd reason he actually enjoys what he does and all that army stuff, but I know he doesnt like having to go away. Anyway when I came back from talking to him, I guess it showed because they asked what was wrong and I started to tell them and got wicked upset, which doesn't happen often. Heidi offered to go talk in the hallway, which I did and I calmed down a bit and went back to the movie.
After the movie I cheered up again. We were all so tired that we might as well have been drunk. I think we sat there and literally stared at the wall until 3am. But it was hilarious. The next day I had to go sing at a wedding in the mor, and then eventually we made it to the carnival/barbeque thing which was nice. Afterwards I was introduced to MarioParty5 and we played that for a while, went to battle of the bands, kept Mark company while he dealt with the obnoxious drunk kids and watched a movie, then played more MarioParty until about 3am. It was a good time. My friends pretty much rock.
So last night I had a dream that the kid who plays harry potter was staying at my house. We were hanging out, I saved him from the crazy fans, and then I told him how cute he looked without his glasses and that I really liked him. And I was going to tell him that I had a boyfriend, but he started kissing me before I could. And it wasn't the most amazing making out ever, but I was like mesmerized. Then all of a sudden we were sitting next to this really nice pool at night, and we had to hide b/c I thought my dad was going to see. And then I told myself that I still had to tell him, but I didn't. And I woke up. oh well, laters.

Well tonight was pretty awesome. We had IMPROV FINALLY!!! But that was after chorale (which I am going to miss because we are learning this awesome song and it's like jungle music but i love it) and watching the acapella guys - they are so great! hence why Heidi and I are the official groupies...we're going to make t-shirts and everything...obsessive? yeah maybe a little ;) then we went to dinner and the food sucked, but the company was good and we got to jam to the juke box... Then before improv we all decided to go see "Extremities" and OHMYGOD I'm going to have nightmares which is probably why I'm not sleeping right now. So it's this play about a guy who comes into this girl's house and tries to rape her, and there is about 20 minutes devoted to the actual rape and the struggle. That right there is mt BIGgest fear. I don't know why. But I've always been afraid of a)people breaking into my house while I'm there and b) getting raped. So seeing it right there before my eyes pretty much freaked me out enough for the next couple of weeks. And the actors were soo good. It really sucks when the only reason to be scared is that you're a girl. I mean I know that I am protected and that there's really no chance that it would happen to me, but it could, and anyway it doesnt even matter b/c its the mere thought of it that makes me sick. The other reason why it scares me tonight in particular is because campus security sent out an email yesterday to watch out for a creepy guy lurking around campus...that guy was IN MY DORM last night, and we didn't even know! They still havent found him, so he could be anywhere. So add that on top of all this rape stuff, you might as well just shoot me know because quite frankly it scares me shitless. Matt and my friends managed to calm me down though, so I might have a chance of sleeping tonight.
Anyway after that I definately needed to be cheered up, so Improv was a pretty good solution. After Jared and I successfully beat down the door of the theater workshop with our magical powers, we were kicked out by some angry theater class kids. Soo we went to the Maison and finally got to Improv which was fun fun fun. After that we went for a Ben&Jerry's run and came back to Alumni for some karoake madness. It was great because we didn't get angry knocks on the door and I didn't have to hide until they had all gone away! I was a little off tonight though...I only got low platinum scores :-P I was going to go down to the duck pond after, but I guess that will have to wait for another night. I did get both of my papers done which I was pretty proud about. And now I think it's late enough.

I know that this is two entries in one night, but I didn't want to leave just my random blurb. This weekend has been amazing with Chicago. Good show, good friends, good times. I can't believe it's over. I definately have post play depression. It happens after every show. It'll go away, and I'll have a lot more time now, but there's still the fact that I'll never get to do "All that jazz" again which was friggin amazing. Last night my whole family (minus a brother, but there was still 9 there) and Matt and his roommate came to see it which was nice, and we ended up going to Applebee's where apparently everyone else was going too! Then today AnnMarie came to see it which absolutely made my day =). No, I did not go to any crazy cast parties, although I heard the stories about them. We attempted to have a cast bbq, but that was the extent of it. Instead, I hung out with my closer friends of the cast which was still a good time, if not better than any wild party. This last week of classes is going to suck. But I'm sure it'll go by fast, what with improv being back and celebrating mine and heidi's birthday and all... :). As far as my previous entry goes, there are just some things that I was thinking about tonight especially, although I'm not too sure why, so I felt the need to question the world. I tend to do that a lot, then usually I snap out of it. Anyway, I have officially put off my homework and now it is about 1am, and I am exhausted and I'm getting a headache.

What if everything turns out differently than you thought it was supposed to? What if the only thing that matters is the experience, or if life decides to change its mind? What would you do then??

CHICAGO OPENS TONIGHT!!! AACK! It's going to be awesome, fabulous, dazzling, superb....steamy. ;)


p.s. if you do not go, you will have bad sex for the rest of your life


p.p.s. j/k :P


p.p.p.s. .....or am i?

yep so it's definately 2:30am and I am stalling doing my hmwk...actually this is the first time i've sat down at my desk since 3 this afternoon. And i was going to forego the hmwk and hit the hay, but i had somewhat of a disturbance to wake me up...so for the play, they told us to remove all jewelry, which i did. Except i never go more than a few hours without my second hole earrings in, so when i went to go put them back in a few minutes ago, one ear was pretty much closed. Dont ask me how this happens, because they've been pierced since the summer. So no one is around, and I'm freaking out b/c I cant get my earring in and you know it kinda hurts, so I go back to my room and rummage around in the dark for a needle, which I found and went back to the bathroom and somehow managed to poke it through enough so that I could get my earring back in. My hand was shaking the whole time, but somehow I managed and now I am never taking it out. Not that it matters anyway because my wig will cover my ears. Oh that's right - I have a wig for the play, along with most of the other girl dancers. It's big and black and looks absolutely ridiculous on me. Ewe. But it is kinda fun still I guess. Yeah today we had a full dress rehearsal which was pretty much chaos. On the plus side I didn't mess up too badly, but some of the costumes are questionable. I dont even care about the one that I'm most exposed for, b/c its actually not that bad. But then we have these ugly frock-type dresses and we have to wear them for the rest of the show, which doesnt make any sense at all and looks wicked stupid. Oh well. With one day left I suppose there isnt much I can do about it. I still cant believe we have a performance in 2 days! eeek!
Tonight was fun though. We got out of rehearsal at 9, went to Charlie's to finally eat dinner, hung around there for a while. Then me, Jared, Heidi, and Mark squared went to the library and ended up getting When Harry Met Sally which turned out to be a really cute movie. We didnt actually start watching it until about 11:30, hence why I just got back. It was fun though. It's nice to just be able to hang out without having to actually do something. Jared walked Heidi and I back to Alumni because we're his bitches, and so that we wouldnt get mugged haha.
My throat hurts. I hope I dont get sick again. That would be bad. Luckily I dont have History tomorrow, but I have still have class at 10. So yeah I'm gonna go.

So Easter was...busy. I spent it writing a 10 page paper, running errands, helping my dad, shopped around for wedding stuff, got to see my brothers and my memere for a little while and then it was over. Oh and I went to church a lot. Four days in a row...if I'm not holy by now I need some serious help. Friday some of the crew got together and we watched the Passion, me and AnnMarie being the sniffling ones the whole time, just like it was for Rent, but we dont care. I was dissappointed that I didnt get to go hang out with them the next night, so I guess I have to wait until May! Today was fun expecially because my dad had to bring matt and i back, but he is always late, so instead of leaving at 12:30 we left at 2:30, and i had rehearsal at 4. Rehearsal was so stressful today. Up until this point, I've felt really good about it. But today was pretty bad. We dont know what costumes we're wearing for what numbers, things are so unorganized, I messed up during one song and I'm in the front so everyone noticed and made me feel retarded, and everyone is freaking out which isn't helping. I'm excited for the show and I think it will be good, but it is just so hectic right now. These next few weeks are going to fly by. aaand now i have to go finish some work. laters

Ugh I am never taking a yellow cab again. Ever. So yesterday afternoon I walked over to WPI (took me about half an hour and I wasn't speed walking or anything so not too bad) and we were going to do that whole ice skating thing but apparently there was a hockey tournament going on so that was out. Then we were going to go for a walk but it started pouring so that too was out. So I convinced Matt to watch RENT (finally...and I dont want to hear about how we could have watched it at Sean's house, it was a bad night okay deal with it!) I met his roommate for next year, Tom, and he is definately one of the most normal kids I've met from WPI thus far so that was cool. Except when I met him we were in the middle of the stairwell and I was attempting to put my sweatshirt on while he shook my hand so that was a little awkward. Then we watched Chronicles of Narnia (good movie but way too long) and Matt's roommate came back to go to bed because he has pink eye. ewe. Then a bunch of people were going to the frat, but I'm kinda sick and I had stuff to do this morning so I decided to go back. So they all decided to wait for the cab with me before heading out...it didnt get there for about 45 minutes. Tom and another guy actually had to run outside and flag it down when it did come so that it wouldn't leave without me. Then I finally get in the cab, and the guy doesn't speak English, has no idea what Assumption College was, and tells me he's new. First he took a wrong turn, and I finally realized it and told him I think he should turn around. I swear he was going to lead me out into the middle of nowhere. Plus he was kinda swerving so I was pretty sure I was going to die. But he turned around, started heading back in the right direction, then somehow got off track again. And I'm sure everyone knows how horrible I am with directions, so I wasnt too much help. But I did eventually figure out where I was and I was able to tell him where to go. And he would randomly try talking to me but I couldn't understand him so I was just like yeah ha ha...it was awful. I was in there for 20 minutes more than I was supposed to be. But I told him that Assumption students have a flat fee and he understood that so at least I didn't really have to pay for it. See we have a "safe ride" program where you can call the cab from anywhere in Worcester after 10pm, and it brings us back to school for $4. It's primarily supposed to be for emergency situations where you really need to leave somewhere, hence the "safe" part...so yeah I'm really glad that they care so much that they send my cab 45 minutes late with the new guy. Awesome. But really those cab people have screwed us over way too many times. So from now on people with cars are just going to have to stop being lazy and give us a ride, or we'll just have to stay the weekend until the bus comes around on Monday morning. At least the year is almost over, and next year Matt and hopefully more people will have cars. Next year is just going to be great in general. No more cabs and no more dining hall. Yay.
BOSTON NEXT WEEKEND! =)

Grey's Anatomy like whoa. peace

So I think it was my last entry that I was ranting about my speech professor making a comment to me about an assignment and how pissed I was and how I wanted to get an A just to spite her...well that speech was videotaped and then the class had to watch them and critique them. I just got back from it, and I am actually very surprised about how well it went over. I believe the words "phenominal" "great" "best speech so far" were used....yeah. And she basically apologized for thinking that it wouldn't be a good topic because she thought it was perfect. "Inspirational". And in a class with mostly seniors no less. I am very happy.
I'm still waiting for the final word from my parents about the cape...I'm not too too worried because Matt is amazing and basically convinced my dad, but they havent actually talked to me about it. I told them I need to know by this weekend. I'm going home to try on bridesmaids dresses and Carrie's bridal shower! YAY!

p.s. someone stole my 1G flashdrive. needless to say i'm pissed. thats all.

SQUIRRELS ARE TAKING OVER THE WORLD!!! lol j/k. But seriously, they were stalking us today. I was walking with Heidi and Steph, and all of a sudden Heidi screams, mid-sentence, then Steph looks over and screams, then naturally I look over too and see a random dead squirrel lying on a rock! So of course I screamed too, I don't know why. Well it was just so random, usually roadkill is actually, you know in the road. What made it even funnier was that we were talking about PETA (people eating tasty animals...dont ask cuz i dont know either) because we were talking about meat and the time we went to see Chicken Run and John Emmerling said, "Save a chicken, eat a whopper" lol....yeah so it was kinda funny talking about people eating animals then seeing a dead one at the same time, very wierd i know... and it didn't stop there because on the way to dinner we're walking to the dining hall and there, climbing down the wall a mile a minute, is another squirrel! I dont know how they do that. It looked like one of those flying squirrels, cuz it was huge. But yeah it must have been a sign that squirrels are simply taking over the world, so watch out.
Ok I officially don't know why I told you all that. I apologize. I blame it on the overdrive that my brain is in at the moment...I've been loaded with work all week, havent gotten a whole lot of sleep, and now I'm procrastinating as long as I can until I have to write my last two papers which aren't going to be too fun. I can't wait until break!!! Even though I would much rather be spending it on say a Carribean Cruise or somewhere warm like Disney world...oh well. I get to go home tomorrow with Matt at 1:30 then there's Dippel's party yayyyyyyy!!! But then I fear that I'll be working at Hannaford for the rest of the week...oh the joy. Still though, it's worth it for an entire week of not eating at Taylor Dining Hall and showering without flip-flops and not hearing obnoxious neighbors all the time. later gators!

ugh I am exhausted. Got up this morning 10 minutes before I had to walk out the door, went to my 8:30 history class(worst class eeever), came back to my room and attempted to print my paper for my 10:30 class, only to find out that I was completely out of ink and the spare cartridge I had was the wrong kind, plus it kinda exploded on me...so no luck there. Then when I when I actually got to the class, the teacher was wicked rude to me because we're supposed to make a presentation next week on a person on place than people don't know about, so I picked this kid Mattie Stepanek (he died of muscular dystrophy but he was a genius)and when I told her this she says, "I think anyone who's ever seen Oprah would know about him" and it was so rude and it pissed me off. She's still going to let me do it though because I've already done the research and stuff, plus I don't really think that many people know about him. She's a cool teacher, but she can be so snotty sometimes, especially towards the freshmen in the class, which is me and two others. The rest is mostly juniors and seniors. Being in a class with upperclassmen is cool, but it is really intimidating, especially when the teacher looks down on freshmen. so now I have to give a presentation on something that the teacher hasn't really accepted with open arms, I'm going on Monday, haven't finished it yet let alone start practicing, and it's worth more than anything we've done all semester. Did I mention she's videotaping it? I'm screwed. Now I just really want to get an A in that class just to spite her.
After that I went to math class (it's seriously stuff we did junior year, its pretty lame...or maybe it was senior year...whoa does that mean that we actually learned something from Hayden? hmmm....nahh nevermind, we havent done anything yet that involves "Lets invest nOw" haha) then I went straight to work study, made 500 copies and then punched holes in them, and now I'm back. But I have about 15 minutes, then I have to go to Improv b/c we're getting judged today to see if we're capable of having a performance sometime. Then I might have time to eat something before I go horsebackriding tonight, which is going to be, if I dare say it, even more freezing than last week...yeah I'm not looking forward to that part so much. I hope we don't have to go next friday though because that would kind of get in the way of Dippels party, and I have a dire need to go to that...so yeah. I can't wait until I can relax tonight for a couple hours at least after everything is done because then tomorrow it all picks up again!

OK, so here goes, my first official entry. Lets see, what do you need to know about my life? College is going pretty well. But since I do go to a liberal arts school, I have to take math and history and all that good stuff so it gets kind of boring. My schedule is pretty insane. I pretty much go from class to work study to rehearsal on Monday and Tuesday, Wednsday is a pretty light day but I still have four classes, then Thursday I have class and work study and Chapel Choir rehearsal, Friday I have class and work study and horsebackriding. Then Sundays I also have Chicago rehearsal 1:30-5:30, and Chapel choir/mass 6-8. It's fun though. Actually today I was gone all day for a chorale festival which was pretty crazy. And Chicago is coming along quite nicely...it's going to be wicked hott so everyone should come!!
You would think that going to college in the same city as your boyfriend would mean that you see eachother all the time, but actually we dont get to see each other that often because our schedules are so busy. But I have gotten very familiar with the little bus that travels between all the schools, as well as with the cab service which consistantly pisses me off because they are always late and they are the reason I have no money. By the way my dorm room sucks, a) because it is so small and there is no room to put all our shit and b) the people on my floor are retarded. So next year my roomate and I are hoping for the nice apartment-type dorms because that would be awesome. As far as my major goes, I was debating about something called dance therapy because it sounded like something that would suit me, but then I realized that I would have to major in psychology, which, although Mr. Hoole was the man, wasnt all that interesting to me. So I am probably going to stick with English, but for what I am not sure. I wanted to write, but if I tried that I will probably just end up like Mr. Grady LOL. I dont know. Maybe an AP teacher or college professor, b/c I wouldnt want to teach brats. I never even wanted to be a teacher, but it seems like I'm running out of choices, and maybe it wont be so bad. Oh well, I have about a year to decide.
I can't believe how fast this year is going. My brother's wedding will be here in less than 3 months, and we won't be freshmen anymore!! I am ready for winter to be done and summer to start though... Cape Cod(knock on wood)!!!